Crazy to Insane from Evil

I waited to long to make the right decision.5 years of going back and kept from doing what I knew I was supposed to. Made what happened today nearly Impossible. Holding on for so long and so tight. Made you wanting to let go so painful. Even though we knew it was right. We both put up a good fight. hearts were broken and memories faded. all that is left is the time that we wasted.  Not wasted but that has faded . not wasted because we learned alot of lessons. we grew and matured. became something other than we were. Iam sorry I had to finally let go. I still love you and always will but sometimes love is just not enough. I love you,everyday I think of you. I can only hope you do the same. I knew you loved me but were to selfish and thhought of yourself and left me hurt.
I know you wish you could take iy back and so do I buy its to late. I knew from the start to let go. We could of prevented this pain way before. yet we choose to fight and made it worse.
All I have to say is I LOVE YOU and hopefully someday we can be friends and I can see you happy. Sorry for letting go. I just felt so alone with you there, and I was tired of being hurt.
to sirsmokealot </3

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Young Drummer Boy - Kock N Spray (With Lyrics On Screen)-High Forever 2015

Dont think

My mind goes crazy, as time is starting to speed up!, I need time to consider my options but my world is spinning to fast. I wish I knew the right and wrong decision to make. I knowni cam sense the wrong ones, and I have a feeling Im making them, but I pray something good comes out of it.

Evil

Maybe Im pure Evil and I dont even know.it.
I let things esclade,and then walk away.

If I was Gods I wouldn't do the things I do, I wouldnt desire what I desire

My heart would probally be more on fire.

Im.ghost and I feel nothing
The past left a skeleton behind

A hole burnt in.my chest
And I feel like I have no desgin

I dont want to.be walked on
But I.dont want conflict.

Im stuck, but maybe im just pure Evil.

To macklemore

Yo macklemore this is me,
I am a girl that is going to turn 23,

Otherside really touched my heart
It made me see what I could be

I went to college and finished
Ended up with the wrong crowd

A boyfriend who used, abused
And cheated me.

Did some drugs that wasn`t me,
Became my crutch so he wouldn`t leave.

I should of known the way he hounded
When I told him I was a virgen
He wanted to see

I said hold up, hold up, hold up,
He said nah man come on please

And by the first time he hit me
I was so blind I couldnt see

He took my car,and I wouldn't know where he'd be.Leaving me stranded he even took my house key.

I was so blind I couldn't see.

I would just take another hit
And make and excuse for it.

All that took away my creativity
I moved back in my parents house

Since then the world ain't the same to me
My dreams seem so far our of reach

But everynight I pray to God:
Oh please bring back who I used to be.

Your song took me back to things
I`ve seen.

                       <3 meshialeray

The terror

some current events that as happened has inspired my story. Well the event is actually my story! This is just a hyped of version of what might of happened. It is about the Guy taking the "Bathsalt" drug and mauling off another guys face, and it took five shots to get him off.

It was anger NO maybe sadness, and lonliess, who really knows. Harris lays hunched up in a corner without a word. NOthing can be seen except the little light reflecting off Harris"s face.

(flash back into the past)
Harris throws a vase on the ground and it shatters.  His wife screams Stop your scaring YOur daughter Madison. He looks at his wife straight in the eye and without blinking punches the mirror that is hanging on the wall next to them. Tears run Down Kristen's face  as she flinch's when the glass make a shattering noise.  He walks out the door leaving them alone.

Harris jumps into his car and takes off to the local bar. He walks in everyone greets him. Hey! Harris! Hey bobby can i HAve the usually?
bobby:
well only if you promise bot to make a disturbance this time.
Harris: yea yea i promise.
Bobby:
Im serious Harris! I have taken you side to many times im losing business.
Harris:
Am i not your best customer
They both laugh and take a shot together.

It is about midnight when Harris returns home with cuts on his face. HE stumbles through a quite house. No lights are on, so he trips on somthing and hits his face on the floot. Kristen runs into the kitchen in her night gown to go and check on him.

Kristen:
Dang Harris, not again.
 Harris mumbles inchoerntly as slavia comes out of his mouth.  Kristen carries him to the room as he sleep's it off.

He wakes up with the windows open and the sun brightly shinning upoun his eyes. He makes a wincing noise and rubs his eyes. He walks arounf the house to fin that no one is home. When he walks to the living room he sees some blood on the floor, and begins to touch his face. As he does he wincies again. So then he walk to the restroom and looks at his torn up face in the mirrior.

He hears his wife walk in with his laughing daughter madison who is 6.  He walks out of the bathrooms and sees them.

Harris
Where in the heck have yall been?
Kristen
It's sunday, we always go to church on sundays.
Harris
A note would of been nice or something.
Kristen
 well were home now
Harris raises his voice a little.
That's not the point.
He takes a deep sigh and then walks out the house.

As he walks down the street he takes out his cellphone and dials a number.
Hey bobby what happened last night.
I don't know but my guess is you lost me some more customers, and i must of joined in because my bloody lip hurts!